In this video, the question of what gives you self worth came up. And for me that is undoubtedly my writing. Putting together these stories in perfect little sequential pieces of art. That is what does it for me. Everything else feels like the bullshit I put up with to get back to where I am happy and growing and trying to be honest and brave.
Writing is such a huge part of who I am that I can’t tell you how frustrating and hurtful it is when people who I care about try to tell me to give it up. To move on. Or who just call it a hobby in spite of any and all success I have enjoyed.
I know they love me and they mean well. And the idea of this as a career is such a foreign concept to them that they can’t see it as anything else ut a waste of time.
That’s okay though. I love what I do and I am immensely proud of the work I have done. Even the shitty work at the beginning of my career. I’ve given up the notion of making people proud of me a long time ago. So making me happy and fulfilled will have to do.
I once heard it explained (and I’m paraphrasing here) that “Comics is not a career. It is a lifestyle choice.” It was meant as a joke, but I couldn’t think of anything more perfect to describe it. It’s who I am. It’s what I love and appreciate. Without it, I’m not sure I see the point of getting up in the morning beyond simply not dying.
Creating comics is the thing that gives me a sense of self worth.